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"It is all about numbers. It is all about sequence. It's the mathematical logic of being alive. If everything kept to its normal progression, we would live with the sadness-cry and then walk-but what really breaks us cleanest are the losses that happen out of order." (Page195).

This was just a passage that struck me. We do get stuck in the order or things. There could even order in disorder. Its a subject that we can run around in our heads until well we get tired and would rather smoke some herb and have cake. Well there is really never an excuse in the world not to have cake. I know I get stuck in it (the concept not the cake). But I like to think that things that happen out of order are wonderful discoveries. If we had to much order well its time to wake up and actually live. I've learned to belive in the process. Disorder can be comforting. Well not extreme disorder but extreme anything is unhealthy. Unless its pancakes and M&ms. I like pancakes M&ms, I like pancakes M&ms, I like pancakes M&ms, I like pancakes M&ms. They make me a happy me!

I didnt' think of this so much to be a serious blog. More so intersting and fun for me to write and think about. But I'm not making excuses for anything.

I thank my meaty cohorts for all their wisdom, scarcasm, wit, and fucking everything. Thats an aside but a big aside.

Another aside. Claudette and I talked about what if they did "Waiting to Exhale" with an all lesbian cast. Oh the possibilities. Or a male cast. and in the scene when the one guy is upset he could be pulling out all the feather boas and elegant evening gloves and tiaras to burn in a box. Well that was actually all we talked about with that.