A HA !
it was / is a VIRUS.
mystery solved.
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it was / is a VIRUS.
mystery solved.
between midnight last night and dusk today, I slept about 16 hours.
i'm about to pass out again.
still feeling all run down. On the edge of exhaustion.
maybe i'll take a short nap then start doing more work.
weird.
oh no, you're gonna have to click below to see it...
When u were here the other day, did u have someone over that wud have left panties and shoes?
I believe EVERY day is good for one or both of these
porn porn porn
it's good
it's funny
and it's good for you.
just like wheat germ
and carrots
and cocaine.
no wait...
all except that last part
there is a place in Mar Vista where i can check out of the world proper
drop out of time and space. out of the unnecessary worries, illusions and delusions of so-called reality.
to simply be. to rest and heal.
and in the emotional scatter-zone of L.A., that sort of thing is needed.
in New York, daily life is not so deeply out of balance. for me at least.
and i've said it before but it's good, for myself at least, to reiterate: the 1000-mile-stare i see in the eyes of most every man, woman and child on the morning train to Manhattan... it takes a dose of L.A. to put that kind of darkness into my perception.
why is "home" like that?
how is it that the big bad Metropolis, the scary "if-you-can-make-it-there" place, feels so familiar and inviting?
but the place i'm most familiar with - the place i was born and grew up in - is so damn annoying.
so ugly.
But in one small room there is air. That room in Mar Vista doesn't feel alien. It doesn't feel like the oxygen is sucked out of the place.
it doesn't feel like i'm in the presence of an enormous animal that you always feed but is never satisfied.
in my mind: L.A. = Need
unquenchable need. blind animal hunger.
maybe it's just me. the millions of people here might have a different take.