email to a "friend" at 3 a.m.
oh yeah, one more thing -
L. just came home, stirring me from my almost-slumber
i just remembered, and also to add to the growing list of reasons that should convince you that i'm totally gone...
at around 5:40pm (the blue digital clock was the brightest thing in front of me) as i leaned back in the seat of my truck waiting for someone, i closed my eyes
all restless - my mind flipping between business, family, family business, you, business, family, you, family business...
trying to stop or at least slow my thoughts. stuff kept bothering me and jolting me out of the stillness. very annoying.
i suddenly got the impression that you were there. i mean not there there, but the Shape - the essence that is you and only you, moved through me briefly creating this infinite stillpoint of calm...
then the various concerns pulled me back into the ping pong spin of thought-trash.
but that one slow moment stands out amongst the noise like a light kiss to the jugular amid a bustling crowd.